.: ExPlAnAtIoN :.

Why do you get so mad

When I talk shit on my brother and my dad?

Why do you let things Slide when it comes to them.

But

If I fuck up once its feels like abandonment

Why cant you open your eyes

And see

The world doesn't revolve around materialistic things

Don't validate me

I talk the way I talk

Dress the way I dress.

So just accept

It

Why should I apologize

For being the way that I am?

I'm not ashamed

For all this shit that I claim.

Just do me the favor

And don't take the blame here

You did nothing wrong 

You weren't a fucked up mom

You were always their 

During every one of my affiars

Voice Lessons,

Rehearsals,

Band Concerts,

Everything that you knew really mattered.

Back in the day,

It seemed like I didn't care

Didn't appreciate

For every cent you threw out their

And especially 

For your #1 heart ache.

I saw my dad

Always late

Or 

Never there

Always demanding

Never took the time

To realize the real women in you.

All the pain he put you through.

You didn't need to accept

Even though you did.

Thats why I can't put the pieces together

Of the Calderon Puzzle.

The people who never really said thank you

The ones who use you 

Talk shit about you

Treat you like you are nothing 

Just for being a women

But they get treated better

Then the ones that try to make you feel

No 

The ones who let you know

You are equal.

No matter what your race,

Your title,

Or your gender.

Don't take offense

To whatever I just said

If you didn't see the point,

I'm really saying thank you.

All i want is an explanation.

Why you get so mad

When I talk shit on my brother and my dad?

* HeY yOu WhItE gIrl *

Your shit does stink.

Your not cool,

With your Chanel bag and Ugg boots.

Look at me when I talk to you.

I know you can understand me 

Even though I'm Mexican

I do know English 

Nor 

Do I have a authentic accent,

Don't think your so hot,

With your died platinum hair.

And your surgically implanted boobs.  

You are not Barbie

Your mouth won't keep shut

Your a golddigging slut.

With your alimony money.

Just hold a sign,

Right above your head.

That simply says.

" Will open my legs,

With a credit check"

Hey OOMPA LOOMPA

I know your tan is fake.

Your white okay...

Just accept it

Step back on the helium

That you pretend is inserted in your ass

Cause bitch your voice is annoying

With your 

"Oh my gods"

or

" Whatevers"

Tell me can you say anything that's clever.

Don't go to my favorite restarant 

To order a fucking salad.

Go home and make your rabbit food yourself.

If you go out to dinner

Eat Bitch!!!

It wont go straight to your Silicone ass 

I promise.

If not its nothing a Liposuction treatment can't fix.

Raise your kids yourself 

Like a regular American.

You don't need help 

Homemaker.

Boo Hoo to you

For not being able to have you daily spa treatment

Or weekly Pedicure.

Spend some quality time with your children

Not on yourself.

I'm sick and tired of your stupid white girls

I don't like dropping my i.q just for you

Someone please alert the goverment.

That they should start charging a new tax.

For stupid bimbos like you!!

This is not intended for all white women.

* WhAtS yOuR fEtIsH *

I had no Christmas this year...

My mom is in Arizona.

And their is no fucking way 

I am going to be stuck

In a car for ten hours with the 

Asshole, The " Homemaker" and the prick

Sorry mom.

Christmas was not worth that much agony...

Its supposed to be the time of cheer.

Plus who wants to be with family on Christmas
To watch low life's sit and use my mother for presents.

Hey Assholes
She's worth more than her credit card...

So My real family...
(Mom and Alex aside)

Rearranged my room,

Hung out,

Drank eggnog by the fire....

Ha ha just kidding about the fire and nog part..

And we went to FETISH BALL

At Area 51.

So the whole gang got together 

and

had a Birthday/ Christmas together

I was so happy
  I got to bust out the tutu again ha ha 

Of coarse once everyone was ready .... 

WE had to make or Christmas cards for the year ..

A little late i know but here the are

Ha ha
I love them
So when we went to area...

Everyone kept buying me drinks....

I learned alot to...

Like I like my shots dressed,

I prefer sex on the beach as a 

Shooter then a drink

Ha ha I was way wasted..

Hick was their as well

Oh my let me tell you how cute Hick is....

I have a love for this man...

HE is amazing

He is incredible

I would marry him in a hearbeat...

 Laugh all you want but i am

OBSESSED

With forrest gump.

Well this hick guy can quote forrest gump

more than i can...

And sounds like him naturally... ha ha

Oh my it was hot....

So...I drank

I Danced

&

I peed

& Flushed

 

& Peed some more

 

Once the seal was broken 

It was 

broken.

It was so much fun...

A much needed Christmas.

Sorry mom that Chris and I couldn't see you

But like i said before we will have our own soon.

* DaDdY's LiTtLe GirL *

Stand up straight

Lose more weight

Don't tag me on your facebook page.

Do not speak

Kiss my feet

Don't tell lies

Close your eyes

Get out of bed.

Close your legs

What is wrong with your fucked up head.

Dont do drugs

Wheres my hug

Don't test me or ill pull the plug

Be a lady 

Don't Drive me Crazy

What happened to my little baby,

Your constant bitchen

Clean the Kitchen
Why don't you listen?

Not on time

Did no crime

 No I won't give YOU a dime

Your not a dad

 And thats just sad

 Oh how you make me mad

Your a prick

Suck a Dick

Dont play those stupid tricks

Where were you

The time just flew

now Look at me and you... were through

Im Not Sitting

In not waiting

Im running now

Away from you.

You didnt care

My daddy bear

See my heart....

Now watch it tear

You didnt try

You didnt cry

Now all i ask is why

You Just talk, never listen,

How dare you call yourself a Christian.

Open up!

Who is the real You?

Do you even know?

You have a wife

She gave you a perfect life

now all you do is cause her stife

All you do is use and abuse

but if you had to choose

Who means more to you?

Your wife ,Your mother

Your Family, Your money, My brother

Can their be no other

You will lose one way or another.

Just a game

For all your "fame"

Do you know you look lame

R.E.S.P.E.C.T

Do you really know what that means

Open your eyes and see
That your world doesn't include me