.: StAnDiNg On EdGe :.

Lord I killed myself today

I needed something to take away the pain

I tried so hard to run away

One step at a time 

Till I realized

 Their were no more for me to climb.

Death was waiting for me at the top

 Disguised as myself

I thought

I finally was okay

Come Sit by me 

I think I said
So I crawled over
Cautiously

But how 

Could I be staring

At a reflection of my self

Or

Was the real me finally out.

I was a wolf in sheeps clothing

Pretending to be who I wasn't 

Being undressed by Death 

One Bandaid at a time

We talked

About everything

My fears,

My woes,

My regrets,

For a week 

Or

For a hour

I lost track.

You were pulling in my anchor

Telling me you had a way out.

Into my own rabbithole we crept

A tunnel of memories,

Hurtful and Happy.

Back to the roof

That we met.

Now with both legs.

I stood at the ledge.

 Seeing all the people I made happy

All the people I loved,

You told me to turn around

Suddenly I was Death

Pushing the only part of me that ever existed

 Watching myself fall in to the ground

A tear rolled down my cheek.

A tear of joy

A tear of regret.

Lord I thought I killed myself today.

I dreamt a way to end my pain.

< SaYiNg GoOdByE tO yEsTeRdAy >

Im saying goodbye to yesterday

Today is when I will turn the page

 New year

New life

New me

My resolution

For life.

Be who I want to be

Say what I have to say

Go where I want to go

 Live each day as it were my last 

I tell my tale 

Through my blog.

 Its open for everyone to see.

Your just like Alice

Chasing after me.

 Crawl into my rabbit hole.

Read about my life

Think what you want about it

I dont give a shit.

I' m like a drug

You need me.

You want me.

Im your fiend.

I say what you think

I'm your guilty conscious.

Thats why you are still reading this. 

Give me suggestions....

I love opinions.

Just remember Alice....

When you look into my rabbithole

I'll show you how deep the rabbithole goes.

.: GeT oUt :.

Don't let the door hit you on the way out.

Isn't that how the saying goes?

Why can't you understand,

Nobody wants you here.

Your a loser,

 a jerk,

Pathological liar

But I see the truth,

 Go hide behind Your mother

But Guess what ASSHOLE

Shes my mom to

But now she sees the truth
 I TOLD HER EVERYTHING
About your true colors,

About your girl,

About your job,

About your habits!

 Its all been exposed!

I started the new year right

I wont lie for you

Your as dead to me

As I am to you

NO more favors

No more regrets!

Get out of my house
Get out of my life

You can't make it without me
Soon you'll see
I am better than any women you'll ever find
And more of a man then you will ever be.
Don't be surprised if you come home
And your key doesn't turn.