.: StAnDiNg On EdGe :.

Lord I killed myself today

I needed something to take away the pain

I tried so hard to run away

One step at a time 

Till I realized

 Their were no more for me to climb.

Death was waiting for me at the top

 Disguised as myself

I thought

I finally was okay

Come Sit by me 

I think I said
So I crawled over
Cautiously

But how 

Could I be staring

At a reflection of my self

Or

Was the real me finally out.

I was a wolf in sheeps clothing

Pretending to be who I wasn't 

Being undressed by Death 

One Bandaid at a time

We talked

About everything

My fears,

My woes,

My regrets,

For a week 

Or

For a hour

I lost track.

You were pulling in my anchor

Telling me you had a way out.

Into my own rabbithole we crept

A tunnel of memories,

Hurtful and Happy.

Back to the roof

That we met.

Now with both legs.

I stood at the ledge.

 Seeing all the people I made happy

All the people I loved,

You told me to turn around

Suddenly I was Death

Pushing the only part of me that ever existed

 Watching myself fall in to the ground

A tear rolled down my cheek.

A tear of joy

A tear of regret.

Lord I thought I killed myself today.

I dreamt a way to end my pain.